This month's AAM Challenge #3 really had me stumped! But that is the true beauty of a challenge ~ making you think and stretch beyond what is the norm. The challenge asks us to do a little soul searching and come up with a creation that's from the heart. Do you ever feel as if you are pigeon-holed? Categorised? Labelled? Misunderstood? Have you changed yet no one else seems to see those changes in you? Is it for the better or maybe not so good? Who does everyone think you are? Who do you think you really are? After some careful reading and lots and lots of thought, I stopped and realized, yes ... that's me, too. I was digging thru the digi-cam to see if I happen to have a picture and stumbled on this one - someone playing around with the camera but I happen to be in ONE, lol. I can't even begin to express how I awful I feel when I see it - how tired I look, how sad I seem to be ...... though I promise I wasn't sad ;) As my dad would have said, "you are aloof." But it's the only one I had and I really view these challenges are a learning process (#1 rule - scrap THE MOM, your kids will appreciate you for it later!!) I look back through so many of the photos albums and there are years, yes, YEARS, that I am missing. I refused to take pictures and was always behind the camera. One day my oldest daughter asked me "Mommy, where were you when I was little?" and that just broke my heart. I was there, just too insecure to be photographed :( What a life lesson! So, back to pigeon-holed ...
1. A small compartment or recess, as in a desk, for holding papers; a cubbyhole.
2. A specific, often oversimplified category.
3. The small hole or holes in a pigeon loft for nesting.
Pigeonholed:1. Placed or filed in a small compartment or recess.
2. claissified mentally; categorize.
3. Put aside and ignored; shelved
For me, just as I journaled, I have a very good life and I am very blessed. But it is a very busy life and being a busy mom of 4 and not a lot of "me" time, I can often be worn out by noon! There are times I feel the wind whip through my hair and I get a longing deep inside that stirs my soul to see what's left out there to discover in the world. There are so many things I want to see still and I doubt my family has an inkling that rather than drive to the PTA for one more meeting, I'd rather steer a kayak through the raging rapids and hike through the brush of a brambling trail. I'd pass up baking yet another plate of brownies for scouts and climb the side of a mountain just to propel down the other side! I have a big sense of adventure, ready to burst, but I stiffle most of it because, well, it's not the time or place right now :) One day -- I'm earmarking all the adventurous things still waiting out there for me because I tell ya, baby ..... I'm ready to SOAR!
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